facing defeat, is bittersweet.

No longer living life on the edge of my seat. 

it's like gum is stuck to my feet. 

keeping me stuck, someone needs to save me or i'll get hit by a truck. 

Fuck, the cards i was dealt seems to be all bad luck. 

i'm out of rhymes. guess that means i'm also out of time. 

time for sleep where happiness is mine to keep. 

but for when i wake, it disappears Leaving me awake to face my fears. 

eyes start to fill with tears as i sit here grinding my gears. 

i can't see why i'm still writing. Or why i keep on fighting. 

i give up. 

oh, Hello there December. V.v

My heart hurts. I'm dreading this month when i shouldn't.
I wanted to love you until the end of time but i just couldn't.
or was it that i loved you but you wouldn't?
December 9th was when i first said hello, Inside i bellow.
screaming at the tops of my lungs as my face turns yellow.
now you're just another fellow. Not a lover, Not a friend.
my hopes and dreams with you were all pretend.
A fairy tale, Visions all made up in my head.
Leaving me here now alone filled with dread.
Do you even care what you did to me?
or was i nothing more than something for your parents to see?
our life and love might not have been fake, But it wasn't fate.
You weren't the one for me. And you left a little late.
Leaving your imprint on my heart, You were walking all over me from the start.
my life is now sour, Thoughts of you every hour, leaving me weak and with no control or power.

i was nothing but a meal for you something you could devour. A cannibalistic psycho one of which i can't let go. Voices of you begin to echo, Traces of us fill my room, Filling it with doom.

race cars in my stomach zoom.  You make me sick, you make me swoon.
I can't get over you. Oh what am i to do?