I’m finally starting to realize that my radiance is something I cannot hide, Even though it’s something I've been known to keep locked up inside. When I look at myself in the mirror, after a night out, It can’t be any clearer Just how happy I've become, Yet there’s still sadness hidden behind the stars in my eyes. Hiding behind a life that feels like a lie. Where's that fine line,of belonging, when I get a sense of my thoughts and actions,
which are lies? The person I am, Seems to still be the person I am not.
And everyday I'm left with the thoughts....
I'm so lost, I want to figure it all out but what are the costs?
When did I let this guard down, Enough to let myself never get to frown... Even when my favorite people are around. I feel as if most days My heart is Out of me, and being dragged on the ground. Noticed, Stepped on, bruised, abused, there's a difference than if it were on my sleeve.
I wish I could let the thoughts leave. I wish I could let myself believe. That Who I am, Is who  I want to be. And that the struggles don't define, That thin thin line. Between myself, and me. there's definitely a difference, And even a sense of resemblance. But there's still work to be done here. Maybe this really isn't supposed to be my year. Nothing is clear.
Believe to see? Me?