having the memory of an elephant sucks.

Once again i find myself here pondering the past.
I'm stuck here, torn parts of it couldn't last.
Believe me I've had some times that were a blast.
Some of me being an outcast.
Some of me being the most popular kid in the place.
but most of these i just wish to erase.
most remembered i do not wish to face.
the heartbreaks, the mistakes.
all of this makes up who i am.
without it there is no cheyenne.
nobodies life ever really goes as they plan.
but it helps to try as best they can.
forget the pain, stop setting the blame.
Keep moving forward, never dwell.
for me that never seems to end well.
stuck in a box, a prison cell.
it's all in my mind, my personal hell.
running through my head, when i lay on the bed.
i can't leave myself alone, i can't leave myself be.
one day i'll get over it all. one day i will see.
that everything in my life was simply meant to be.