where do i go from here, I say to myself as i fear the reflection of myself in the mirror.

I can't bare to look at me, This is never who i expected me to be. Why can't i let go of the darkness and let myself free, I stare into my eyes fearing what i'll see. Black all i see is black, nothingness i can never get back, my fangs glisten and ache, I wonder how much of this i'll be able to take. Before the bloodlust takes over, Before i let go of the light.

I sense myself giving into the fright. the feelings of the night. I want him, And the cravings are just starting to begin. I want my teeth sunk into his skin. But i can't let the dark side win. I still have Happiness stored, It just needs to be seen and adored. But the darkness left on hold grows bored. Tired of waiting to be seen. Wanting to beat out little miss peachy keen. Happy and hyper. Taking souls of those she chooses like a loveless viper. She sucks all she can. Before people turn and run. It's not for fun, she needs them to keep her alive and well. their energy is what keeps the dark at bay, And leaves the light on during the day. But everyone she loves seems to hide. And run. Because she clings and suffocates. Taking the lives from those who loved her. Unsure of why she can't keep them around. falling to the ground she curls up and cries. Hoping the love in her doesn't die. She just wants to be loved, but the darkness can't seem to let her.  Grasping her victims and hanging onto them until there's nothing left. Like a thief in the night she steals their last breaths, Without anyone ever noticing just how toxic she can be.