Should i be concerned that literally almost everyone but me hates my boyfriend!? Like i'm sorry my bad for always ratting on him, My bad for only telling you things about him when i'm angry... But you don't understand him or his life like i do... Even i don't fully understand it yet but i sure as hell try.
It's not easy holding onto something when everyone around me thinks i'm just being young and stupid. And hey maybe i truly am just being well YOUNG AND STUPID. but who cares. I'm young nows when i'm allowed to be a little stupid.
I'm in love, my hearts going to do what ever the hell it pleases my guts and brains opinions no longer matter. HEY maybe he is the lying cheating asshole i said he was that one day when i was in hysterics because i went fetching for things and wasn't happy with what i had found... His ex's are either delusional and crazy. Or they're all right and he really is everything i fear. But i obviously am going to stick it out until the bitter end he's fully innocent until proven guilty with photos dated or if i see things with my own eyes... That's just how i am in life and in love... I'll stick it out sure things need to change and have been changing... we're getting better and i'm happy. I'M REALLY HAPPY. there's only one thing bringing me down and that's the fact that i barely see the only thing that's making me happy. I just want a crazy summer filled with fun stuff and long nights that i'll wish never end... i want this weekend beach party with my friends AND WITH MY BOYFRIEND. i can't help it.... i want him there so bad.... But i highly doubt my dad will ever be convinced I've been trying... for once I've actually been fighting and trying for it to happen Like i get it you'd rather me be with someone else who's better for me and blah blah blah... But i don't see it like that... sure he messes up  sometimes and says and does stupid things but he's amazing and i just wish you all could see that side of him too. and not just the sides i tell you about when i'm mad... or the sides he may show... Bleh
I miss my boyfriend more and more everyday. And our records of time spent away from each other keep getting beat with each passing day and month... It's ridiculous. I'm tired of it. I want to be a teenager i want to go out and feel alive. And i want to do all of this with him. And if that makes me crazy and stupid so be it.