I find it odd when i actually have things to write about is the times when i don't..?

Makes so much sense right!?

let's start this by stating that
MY TOOTH AND GUMS ARE FUCKING THROBBING...! And A my fear of dentists now and B my fear of how much it'll cost is keeping me from mentioning it to my mom... Again. Because i have mentioned it a few time but subtly because i don't want to push it... but JESUS i can't keep this up. It hurts to much.

And that's on top of everything else that's going on and or hurts right now.... God if it's not one thing it's another AND ANOTHER and yet another. My body hurts still from getting hit, My stomach's being a little bitch as always, and too top it all off PERIOD CRAMPS i can't take all this pain at once... Ugh sometimes being alive makes me want to die. I miss being emotionless and i miss being able to cope with life on my own. I'm too codependent on everyone now and it's killing me. I've never felt so alone.  I was finally doing well too... I was doing exactly what i had to do to get my shit together... and i just fudge. I'm so over bad things happening over and over again right when things are just starting to get good... But eh i guess that's just life. End rant.... for now at least. my minds too all over the place to be writing right now.