you know that feeling
when you’re lonely
but not alone?

you aren’t exactly sad
but you’re not happy 
either

you miss someone but you’re
kind of glad they aren’t 
around because you need some
space

your body hurts but at the
same time the aching feels
good?

your heart is torn wide
open and you’d rather let it
bleed than allow anyone
to sow it shut?

the stitches will never last
they'll be ripped out from you one by one while the person who sowed them walks away
leaving you there on your own again
nobody can save you
this we all know is true
you're doomed 
stuck here hardly leaving the room 
replaying memories that fill your head with gloom 
there's nothing left of you 
'why even try 
he left you but not high and dry. 
he left you with nothing but your tears 
forced to face all of your fears 
Alone.