I gave up on him.
I let my mind and gut win. It's for the best really.
Now maybe i can learn to begin again.
Either that or i can get worse.
Because afterall i'm cursed.
there's not let's be friends
and no more chances.
I fear this is the end.
One last goodbye one that lasts. One forever held over my head reminding me of the past.
I should've let him go the first time i tried. A part of me has died. I'm not ready to be on my own. But it's needed and my strength will be known. One day i'll look back and be shown. I'll see where things went wrong. And i'll realize it was him all along. He was the liar and the cheat. Which ended with my heart incomplete. and my life in defeat. It takes that first step. to figure out myself in better depth. I'll be ok. just not today. And probably not tomorrow. For i am still so filled with sorrow. Longing for a love i had already lost. Holding onto things that i'd never live to see. For this never was just you and me. We never were meant to be. You weren't a mistake, you were a lesson. One i wish i'd have caught onto sooner. For i'd have saved myself so much pain. For had i stopped myself from loving you before i went insane. This was nothing but a game. A cold hard fucked up game. It pains me to think of all the shame. Hahaha this got hella lame. The end.