You don't text me because you don't want to get attached. Yet the second we do start to text you go right into things THAT GET ME ATTACHED. Maybe cuddles and kisses do little for you. But for me they do a lot. A LOTTA LOT. As does the  flirting. And i can't stand it. This back and fortieth kills me.

Don't make me fall if you have no intentions of catching me.  I get it i'm good at making you happy. I'm good at making your life better.... But once i need you in return or have bad moments you disappear or don't reply. Making me worse.... Much worse. I give in and text you normally repeating the fucking cycle. And all you seem to do is make it worse. Yet i can't keep away. Why? Because you seem to make me feel better and give me hope in this crap life. You help me see that life goes on and that there's other people out there willing to like and or love me... You always feel the need to leave me hanging. I don't need repeats of the feelings anthony left.... Yet maybe that's what i cling to? it's all i know and all i'm used too... So many i cling and am attached because you're familiar  in a way.. I guess. Forver broken and stuck in a never ending cycle of waiting. And false hope. And kindness mistaken for flirting. Blah Blah Blah... The list goes on. But hey..... I'm working on figuring shit out and maybe just maybe one day the cycle will be broken. And i can be fully happy and live the fairy tale once again.