I WANT ATTENTION ALL THE TIME NOW DAMMIT.....
And i honestly don't get or know why? What the hell happened to make me get this way?
Oh if i only knew... ~Le siiiiiiiighs~ The things my mind thinks up at five am...
today was actually damn good regardless of how i thought it was going to go. And regardless of the boyfriend drama i'm having once afuckingain....!
I was looking at seeing my aunts friends for the first time in almost ten years in such a negative way. In such a i'm just gonna end up hurt and crying and i can't face them i thought i was over this... Blah Blah... but that was just my mind trying to trick me once again. It was actually really nice to think of my aunt and laugh for once. To think of the good instead of the bad.... And i came to the conclusion that i'm not over it like i thought i was. and that i'll never actually be over it. Over her.
It's just something i'm going to have to learn to live with and move on from. It's nice being able to finally think of her in good ways again though. No more tears Just laughter.
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